Arnold Schwarzenegger Admits He Struggles with Self Esteem: ‘When I Look in the Mirror, I Throw Up’

Arnold Schwarzenegger may be an action hero and a bodybuilding champion, but he still struggles with self-image.

“When I look in the mirror, I throw up,” The New Celebrity Apprentice boss, 69, says in the February issue of Cigar Aficionado. “And I was already so critical of myself, even when I was in top physical shape. I’d look in the mirror after I won one Mr. Olympia after another and think, ‘How did this pile of s— win?’ ”

“I never saw perfection,” he continued. “There was always something lacking. I could always find a million things wrong with myself and that’s what got me back into the gym — because I started out with that mentality.”

Schwarzenegger says he currently works out every day.

“My day cannot start without doing something physically,” he told the magazine. “And I work out at night before bed — cardio, weight-training. I want to stay in shape as long as I can.”

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Schwarzenegger says he uses his self-esteem issues as fuel for his workouts.

“I do lack confidence, but I do the reps and do them enough that the thing itself will be doable when it’s time,” he says. “When I was competing at bodybuilding, I did so many hours of reps — on the weights, practicing the poses — that when I got onstage, I was comfortable and confident. The more reps you do, the more you look smooth and convincing. The more you do it, the better you get.  That’s how you gain confidence.”

Kate Hudson Gushes Over Working With ‘Pa’ Kurt Russell In Deepwater Horizon

 

There’s nothing better than getting to work with your dad, according to Kate Hudson, who stars alongside her “Pa” Kurt Russell  in their film Deepwater Horizon.

The film, which also stars Mark Wahlberg, Gina Rodriguez and Dylan O’Brien, is based on the real-life events that led up to the explosion of the Deepwater Horizon oil rig, which led to one of the greatest man-made disasters in U.S. history.

To celebrate the Digital HD release of the film, available Dec. 20, PEOPLE has an exclusive behind-the-scenes clip featuring Hudson and Russell explaining why getting to work together onscreen was so special.

“I got to see Mark and my pa, Kurt, together,” Hudson says of why she loved being a part of the film. “I’m biased obviously, it’s my dad, but I thought, ‘Wow what a great combo they are.’ Seeing them together, I think they’re both very much working men, American men, just as people. It’s in their blood and to see them onscreen together like that in that pairing was pretty great.”

Russell adds that he enjoyed working with the entire cast, but that his “little hug” with Hudson stands out in his mind. Watch the full clip above to hear more from Hudson and Russell.

Deepwater Horizon is available on Blu-ray and DVD Jan. 10. Fans who want an even closer look at the making of the disaster film can download the Deepwater Horizon VR app (for free via Apple App Store or Google Play) to view a 360° Virtual Reality commentary by director Peter Berg.

Helen Hunt’s Dad, Director and Acting Coach Gordon Hunt, Dies at 87

Gordon Hunt, director, acting teacher and father of Oscar-winning actress Helen Hunt has died at the age of 87.

“He was a master of reinvention, a journeyman artist,” the actress told The Hollywood Reporter. “He knew and taught that the work doesn’t always find you. You need to create and re-create the work every day.”

Hunt died the night of Dec. 17 after a long battle with Parkinson’s disease, his daughter confirmed to THR.

Known for his work directing cartoon shows like The Smurfs and sitcoms like Mad About You (which starred Helen), Hunt was a true Hollywood renaissance man. He taught well-known acting classes, did voice acting on many of the cartoons he worked on, and went on to win a DGA award in 1996 for directing Mad About You.

A documentary about Hunt and his illustrious career, titled Pebbles, Ripples & Waves, is currently in the works, according to THR.

In 2014, Hunt dedicated her film Ride to her dad, saying, “If you asked 100 people who knew him, 100 of them would say he was the kindest man they ever knew,” THR reports.

In addition to Helen, he is survived by his wife, B.J. Ward, a voice actress; daughter Colleen; brothers George and Peter; and grandchildren Makena, Emmett and Lizze.

Katy Perry and Orlando Bloom Visit a Children’s Hospital as Santa and Mrs. Claus

Orlando Bloom and Katy Perry made wishes come true when they arrived as Santa Claus and Mrs. Claus at the Children’s Hospital Los Angeles on Tuesday.

The duo seemed happy to be there in photos posted on the hospital’s Facebook page. The couple made an impression on the young children whom they met, including a young baby boy.

“Never naughty, always nice. The kids at CHLA received a much-deserved visit from Santa and Mrs. Claus… who happen to look a lot like Katy Perry and Orlando Bloom!” the hospital wrote.

The couple recently attended Westwood actress Shannon Woodward’s 32nd birthday party at West Hollywood’s Blind Dragon lounge.

Joined by Woodward’s Raising Hope costar Kate Micucci and commentator Ronan Farrow, the revelers tore into Alanis Morissette‘s ferocious 1995 single “You Oughta Know” (off her seminal album, Jagged Little Pill).

The pair are also gearing up for romantic holiday plans, a source told PEOPLE in early December.

“They are planning a vacation for the holidays,” the source said. The couple are fond of traveling together, as they’ve already visited Hawaii, Italy and France during their nearly one-year romance.

“Orlando is very happy with Katy. They are not engaged yet, but are very serious,” added the insider, who also explained that Perry, 32, and Bloom, 39, have been focused on making their relationship work amid busy work schedules.

 

Alan Thicke’s Wife Tanya Opens Up About ‘Gut Wrenching Sadness’ Following Actor’s Death

One week following her husband Alan Thicke‘s death, his wife Tanya Callau Thicke has broken her silence.

“It is with gut wrenching sadness and unbelievable grief that I thank everyone from the bottom of my heart for the outpouring of love and support during this unimaginable time,” Callau Thicke, 41, said in her statement to PEOPLE on Tuesday.

“Through tears and smiles our dearest of family and friends came together at our home to celebrate the life of my sweet and devoted husband Alan Thicke,” her statement continued.

The Growing Pains star died on Dec. 13 at 69 years old after suffering a heart attack while playing hockey with Carter.

Along with thanking fans and friends for their outpouring of support, Tanya also shared that she had her final farewell with her husband, whom she married on May 7, 2005 in Cabo San Lucas.

“Yesterday, along with my step sons and our combined extended family, we laid my beloved husband, soul mate and the patriarch of our family to rest. We ask that you respect our privacy during this time of profound mourning,” she concluded.

Tanya and the rest of the family asks that donations be made in memory of Alan Thicke to the Juvenile Diabetes Research Foundation (JDRF), “a cause that he cared about deeply.”

Also on Tuesday, Thicke’s former daughter-in-law Paula Patton shared a heartfelt message.

“I knew Alan since I was 15 years old and he had a tremendous effect on my life. I loved and respected him so much!” Patton, who was married to Robin Thicke, wrote on social media. “So many great memories and laughs together. We will miss him so much! His grandson is quite sure he is still here with us in spirit.”

Christina Grimmie’s Family Files Lawsuit Against Orlando Venue Over Singer’s Death

Christina Grimmie‘s family filed a lawsuit on Tuesday in Florida against AEG Live over the 22-year-old’s death on June 10 when she was fatally shot after a concert in Orlando.

The singer’s family allege wrongful death and negligent infliction of emotional distress caused by Grimmie’s shooting, according to Billboard.

A rep for Grimmie did not immediately respond for comment.

The suit also names The Orlando Philharmonic Orchestra Plaza Foundation, which owns the Plaza Live location where the singer was shot. The suit claims only “superficial bag checks” were conducted on people attending the concert, instead of pat downs or use of metal detectors that would have caught any weapons entering the theater.

Kevin Loibl, Grimmie’s 27-year-old shooter, entered the concert hall with two 9mm Glock handguns, two full magazines and a large hunting knife, Billboard reports.

Grimmie was shot three times by Loibl before he was subdued by her brother, Mark. Loibl then committed suicide.

Her family requests a recovery of future support the singer would have provided to her family members, her projected income after taxes had she lived to normal life expectancy and any medical and funeral expenses paid, according to Billboard.

The report continued, stating Grimmie’s parents are requesting damages for their mental pain and suffering after their daughter’s death, while her brother is requesting compensation for the physical and emotional trauma his sister’s death caused.

Erika Girardi Loses Underwear and Gains New RHOBH Enemy

Dorit Kemsley, the newest Housewife on the The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills, has spent much of her three episodes on the hit Bravo show so far boasting about how well-traveled she is. But while she’s seen Paris, and she’s seen France — Kemsley definitely hasn’t seen Erika Girardi’s underpants!

That’s because Girardi isn’t wearing any.

On Tuesday’s all new episode, Dorit, 40, found herself face to face with a whole new side of Girardi, 45, when the singer showed to a pre-drinks gathering for a white party being held at one of Vanderpump’s restaurants wearing a stunning short designer dress and no underwear.

“It doesn’t look good under my dress,” Girardi said, defending her decision to go commando. “Why would I break up a beautiful design with a panty line?” Really?”

Her au naturale fashion choice was fine until Lisa Vanderpump jokingly put her hand up Girardi’s skirt, looking for a pair of underpants to donate to Housewife Kyle Richards — whose white underwear was showing through her white outfit. The motion caused Girardi to “flash the puss,” as it were.

“Don’t put your hands up my skirt unless you want to see what’s up there,” Girardi sassed. “Don’t push me Ms. Vanderpump — I’ll take you there. I told you that.”

While everyone was laughing at the time, Kemsley didn’t seem to be later on.

The next day while at home, she and her husband Paul “PK” Kemsley discussed the peek-a-boo moment. And though Dorit admitted she first thought it was “no big deal” since “we all have done without any underwear,” she questioned whether Girardi had deliberately flashed everyone – especially Paul, who was seated directly across from her.

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“I know this — if I was going there in a short skirt and there was a man sitting in front of me, I would do everything in my power to make sure my legs were crossed,” Dorit said. “Or I’d have a napkin over it or a pillow over my lap. I’d do something about it.”

“Maybe Erika’s bits are available for the world?” Paul wondered.

He added: “Obviously I’m a straight male and I noticed quite early on. But I’m never going to say anything because it’s quite inappropriate. I was getting…embarrassed. I’m sitting there and I’ve got to focus and I kept looking down. What am I supposed to say? Close your legs darling, I don’t like the view? I didn’t mind the view!”

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Dorit wasn’t upset with her husband for looking. “He’s a man for crying out loud,” she said. “I completely understand why PK could not stop staring at Erika’s hoo-ha.”

She just wanted to make sure her husband didn’t really like it. “Just tell me one thing — were you a little turned on?” she asked him.

“Not in the slightest,” Paul responded.

In the end, Dorit said she would give Girardi the benefit of the doubt. “Maybe she didn’t have her most ladylike moment — these things happen,” she said. “But I think Erika’s got a good sense of humor, so let me have a joke and have a lap with her.”

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Making fun of Girardi might be the wrong move for Dorit, though. Especially since earlier in the cocktail conversation, Girardi made it known she wasn’t interested in the often-insulting British humor. “How ’bout we just celebrate and be nice to one another?” she asked.

“That’s too American, darling,” Vanderpump responded — before Girardi quickly reminded her “we’re in America!”

The conversation confused Dorit. “I don’t know why people don’t get the English humor,” she said. “There’s definitely a fine line. I think American’s need to take a deep breath.”

Girardi wasn’t backing down. “You’re an American, what are you talking about? You were born in Connecticut!,” she said — in what will likely be one of the most quoted lines of the season.

A dumbfounded Dorit stood up for herself, assuring Girardi that as an Aermican, she was simply saying American’s need to “take a deep breath and chill out.” But Girardi’s quick reaction ultimately confused her. “You’ve got this aura about you — very, very strong a bit guarded,” Dorit told Girardi.

“I think in life, when you meet people for the first time, it’s good to be guarded,” said Girardi. “I just am what I am. I don’t trust everybody. Friendship is earned, respect is earned — it’s not just given.”

“No one understands, but I’m a real introvert,” she continued — saying her out there Erika Jayne stage personally is just a persona. “I’m a real introvert. Shy — I’m all of that.”

She didn’t have Dorit convinced. “I’m not really buying it,” the new Housewife told viewers. “Snooty, a bit. Cold, frigid —yes. Introverted? No.”

The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills airs Tuesdays (9 p.m. ET) on Bravo.

 

Lena Dunham Says She Never Meant to Trivialize Abortion on Her Podcast: ‘It Didn’t Translate’

Lena Dunham took to Instagram on Tuesday to apologize for comments she made on her Women of the Hour podcast, where she stated that she hadn’t had an abortion, but wished that she had.

“My latest podcast episode was meant to tell a multifaceted story about reproductive choice in America, to explain the many reasons women do or don’t choose to have children and what bodily autonomy really means,” her post began. “I’m so proud of the medley of voices in the episode. I truly hope a distasteful joke on my part won’t diminish the amazing work of all the women who participated.”

The 30-year-old actress said her comment came from a “delusional girl” perspective that “careens between wisdom and ignorance.”

Dunham stirred up controversy when she recalled a visit to a Texas Planned Parenthood years ago, when a girl asked her to share her experience with abortion.

The Girls creator said she found herself explaining that she’d never had an abortion.

“And I realized then that even I was carrying within myself stigma around this issue. Even I, the woman who cares as much as anybody about a woman’s right to choose, felt that it was important that people know that I was unblemished in this department.”

She concluded, “Now I can say that I still haven’t had an abortion, but I wish I had.”

On Instagram, Dunham wrote she “would never, ever intentionally trivialize the emotional and physical challenges of terminating a pregnancy,” adding, “My only goal is to increase awareness and decrease stigma.”

“My life is and always will be devoted to reproductive justice and freedom,” Dunham continued. “I look forward to fighting with you all for the next four years and beyond.”